Through the lens of my camera life has looked rather flowery, enchanted, and delicious lately.
Don’t get me wrong, it is all of those things. But life has also been laced with a lot of challenges, heartache, creative ebbs, and lapses in self-care.
This is not unique to July, or because I am in the middle of a hectic move, this is just… life.
In the spirit of keeping a balanced view of my ride through the murky waters of crafting a “cured” life, I’m going to start sharing a monthly glimpse of the stuff that’s rough.
Here’s what’s been simmering….
July Stuff That’s Rough:
- Throughout this move my patience has been put through the gauntlet and proven to be not as solid as I would like to be. In other words… my company has been less than pleasant to be around, which sucks.
- I am struggling to choose a focused path, aesthetic, and “brand” for this space. Where exactly is Cured Life going?!
- I am frustrated by the amount of effort I put in to many endeavors with little growth in return. This applies to lots of life areas.
- I am feeling a strong desire to make more art, get back into writing, and tackle some of the creative ideas swirling in my head… without any time to do it all.
- Teaching yoga has affected (killed) my personal practice, and I’m seeking inspiration wherever I can to find a harmony that works between the two. Can I ever just be a student again?
- I want to focus more on feeling gratitude for moving to my dream homestead and less on zeroing in on everything that is wrong with it and needs fixed. Have I mentioned that I have no stove, dishwasher, flooring, or washer/dryer at the moment?
- I feel worn out, tired, and sore all over… just wishing I had dirt-free fingernails, clean hair, and time to sit poolside to properly soak up summer.
What I’m Doing About It:
- Being super nice to myself, not judging any of these feelings, or placing any “shoulds” on them. How I feel is how I feel, and every emotion is valid and okay.
- Persevering through the exploration of many paths, knowing that a dedicated commitment will lead to epiphanies, whether big or small. Slow and steady.
- Acknowledging that there is a constant flux of highs and lows, and not letting myself get washed away in the lows. Keeping a firm grasp on the temporary nature of everything.
- Working on saying no, conserving my energy and time, and putting it towards more personal projects that are meaningful to me.
- Making good nutrition a top priority.
- Setting aside time to practice yoga, indulge in self-care, and pick up a paintbrush.
- Going to bed early, waking up with gratitude.
- Always doing better tomorrow.
Can you all relate?